Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thankful

This Thanksgiving, I am overwhelmed by all the love and support of all my blogger friends.  I am SO THANKFUL for all of you!!  I cannot express that enough!  When I stop to think about how wonderful you all are, I just tear up.  You are truly the best!

I am also feeling very thankful for.... the best fertile mucus I.Have.Ever.Seen!  Unfreakinbelieveable!Whoo Hooo!  That makes for a very happy Thanksgiving!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!  Gobble Gobble!

Yep, I dressed Daisy up like a Pilgrim.  Hehe.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Post-Op Report and The Crazies

Doug and I met with Dr. G last week.  He's a funny, quirky little man.  He just cracks me up and I'm not sure why.  He can bolting into the room for our follow-up visit, screaming... "You're alive!  You're alive!"    Haha!  For some reason I was crazy nervous about the appointment, almost shaking, and this little quirky gesture calmed me down.  Yay Dr. G.

Anywho... Dr. G said the surgery went perfect, absolutely perfect!  That was music to my ears.  It was SO.GOOD.TO.HEAR.  He basically explained that I was full of endometriosis and had some adhesion's around both of my ovaries, tubes and bladder.  He did say that I did not have an ounce of scar tissue from my surgery last year!  He spent the majority of the surgery removing all that nasty endo.  When he removed all the endo from the left side, my left tube OPENED!  It had not only been blocked by fluid inside, but it was all twisted and kinked up due to the endo.  He was able to get the dye to go through the tube instantly!!  WHOOOO HOOOO!

On the right side, he 'unstuck' my ovary from my cervical wall.  Praise the Lord!  That dang ovary, a.k.a The Gremlin, was causing me SO MUCH PAIN!  Once he removed the endo, the right tube also became free and dye was able to glide right through it!

Dr. G said that Doug and I need to give baby making the good ole try for the next few months.  He wants me to have a few unmedicated cycles before seeing him again for ovulation help, drugs, etc.  He said to give him a call mid-January if I am either not cycling normally by then and/or I am not pregnant.  Who are we kidding??  I'm calling January 2nd to set up an appointment.

He also said my cycle would start soon.  And it did.  A whole TWO HOURS later I started spotting and that moved right into the heaviest bleeding I have seen in a long time.  Sorry if that's TMI! I did not know that's what he meant by 'soon'!  The first few days of my cycle were the worst.  I had so much cramping and pain that I had to break out the heavy duty pain meds.  I'm not sure what the rest of the cycle will bring me... but I'm thinking it might be a little wonky this month since it's right after surgery and all.

I left the appointment both excited and petrified.  This is really our first real chance of conceiving.  I know I still have the history of not ovulating regularly, but at least my tubes are open and I'm not full of endo.  It feels like a new TTC start, when we've already been trying two years.

I cried the whole way home from the appointment.  I'm scared that this cycle and everyone following will be wonky.  I won't ovulate, the ovulatory drugs won't work and we will just end up with a house full of dogs.  Granted, I love dogs, but it's not what we are going for right now.

I pretty much haven't stopped crying all weekend.  Every little thing gets me going!  Dr. G also said my emotions might be all over the place for a bit.  I already knew that!  Jelly Belly and Hebrews filled me in on that!!  Seriously... I have a major case of the crazies!  I go from happy to crying in a flipping heartbeat.  It is almost comical!!!  I cry, then I laugh about it!  Thank goodness that Jelly Belly is as crazy as me right now!  I don't know what I'd do without her right now!!  Hehe.

So now, I'm just going to start from scratch.  I'm curious how this month will go... and the next... and the next.  But I will try to take it all day by day, month by month.  I'm not sure how I will do that, but I will do the best I can.  Dr. G did tell Doug and I to go home and 'do our homework'... so maybe that will help! :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

My day!


Yep, it was an exciting day! 

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Soooo Sleepy Post-Op

The surgery itself went really well.  Dr. G was able to remove a ton of endo from all over the place, detach my ovary from my abdominal wall and OPEN BOTH TUBES!!!!!!  Whoo hoo!  Did you read that??!!  BOTH TUBES ARE OPEN!!!!!

I guess I kept asking all the recovery room nurses about my tubes and my stuck ovary.  I have long called the painful ovary the Gremlin.  I guess they didn't know what I was talking about when I kept asking, "Is the gremlin gone?" Hehe.  I wanted to know... even in my drugged state of mind.

I was also feeling a little sick to my stomach in recovery.  FYI... do NOT try to gag yourself in the recovery room to get rid of your sick feeling.  It does NOT go over well with the nurses.  I was so out of it, I didn't even know I was doing it... but they did and made someone stay right by me the whole time.  :)

The first few days home went well.  I rested and tried to eat a little and drink fluids.  I just didn't do that great with that goal.  I felt really calm, from the pain meds most likely, so I thought I was doing great.  Now... I'm crazy exhausted, dehydrated and can hardly keep my eyes open to type.

I'm pretty sure I overdid it the last few days and I'm crashing on post-op day 3.  I had blood work done today and they took 15 vials of blood and all my energy with it.  Fifteen vials!  WTH?! I could hardly move afterwards.  EXHAUSTED!

I'm still having lots of gas pain and I am just plain sore all over.  I am in need of some serious sleep since I've been up most nights since I've been home.  I just cannot manage to sleep for a few hours at a time.

I'm working on getting my bowels and bladder to finally wake up.  That's been a challenge that Jelly Belly and I have been commiserating about.    I mean really... how does a bladder just forget what to do??!!  I expected the bowels to be a little behind... but not the bladder!  Crazy body!  It is nice to have Jelly Belly as a surgical buddy! :)

Whenever I do not feel that great... I just say to myself... "TWO TUBES!"  That makes this all worth it!!

Now... I'm off to get some needed sleep!

Thanks for all your prayers ladies... they are working!!! And thanks for bringing over the yummy dinner Beth!!  You're the best!

My surgical happy feet! :)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

J's surgery update!

Hi y'all, it's Hebrews updating for J. Just got a text from her hubby that said the surgery went well and that the doc was very pleased. J is in recovery now. Her hubby also said the doc thinks they should hopefully be able to get pregnant but may need some meds to help.

What great news! God is so good. Let's keep praying for a swift recovery for her! If her hubby sends any more info I'll be sure to put it up here.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Surgery day is here!

Tomorrow (11/9 @ 2pm) is my endo/tube-fixing surgery.  The house is clean, the laundry is done and I'm ready to go!

I keep going back and forth from soooo excited to absolutely petrified.  That usually happens within a matter of minutes, so it has been an interesting day.  I've had a few interesting nights as well.  Last night I had a dream that they took ALL OF MY ORGANS out of my body.  All of them.  Not sure how I was alive without them, but I was!  The doctors kept telling me the surgery was a success... there was no more endo after all!  Ummm... NO!

The petrified part has filled up my day today.  I have been SO POSITIVE about the surgery.  But today, I let the fear of the surgery not working come in and take over.  Ugh.  I hate it when I do that.  I don't doubt having the surgery.  I need it.  I want to feel better.  I want to have less or no pain.  I want my tubes to work.  I'm just scared something will go wrong or the surgery will not work as planned and there will still be no baby.  That's my biggest fear... no baby.

I went to mass tonight and felt peaceful for the first time all day.  I stopped in the adoration chapel and felt even better.  My priest anointed me on Sunday and I love that.  I feel protected and that there will be a whirlwind of prayers all around me tomorrow.   I still have fears, but am trying to just remain calm and be positive.

If you could please pray for a successful surgery, it would be greatly appreciated. And if you want to add in a prayer that they do NOT take organs out of my body, it would be greatly appreciated.  :)

Mother of Tranquility and Mother of Hope, look upon me in this time of my weakness and unrest. Teach my searching heart to know that God's love for me unchangeable; and that true human love can only begin and grow by touching His love. Let your gentle peace which this world cannot give be always with me. And help me to bring this same peace into the lives of others. Our Lady of Mental Peace, pray for me.