It could have been perfect.
If we would have conceived this cycle, I would have been due at the end of May… which is the end of the school year for my husband.
He would have been home during that exhausting newborn stage.
We would have had the entire summer to adjust to being a new family of 4.
We could have taken newborn pictures outside.
We could have taken George and the baby to the 4th of July parade together… in that double stroller.
Maternity leave would have ended right when school was starting. It would have been a hectic transition, but it would work out great.
Perfect timing.
But I got a BFN last week.
I have had lot of BFN's in my day. This one hit me hard. I had some pretty high hopes this cycle. I should have known better after all my years of IF.
Ironically, the one cycle I wasn't hopeful about was the cycle we conceived George.
Maybe this month I will protect my heart a little better.
Up and onward we go.
