I admit it. I really *wanted* a girl.
I love the relationship I have with my mother and I wanted that with a daughter. I wanted pink dresses and bows and ballet lessons. Yep, I wanted a girl.
I did also want a boy. I wanted Doug to have a son and my dad to have a grandson named after him. That's where George gets his middle name - Theodore.
Having a boy scared me. I know nothing about sports and super hero's - other than the fact my husband loves them. Teenage boys are awkward... and boys during puberty. Eeeeeek. How in the heck would I deal with that??!!
So I knew I would have a boy. Doug was convinced George was a boy and Doug is very good at stuff like that, so a boy it would be!
At the 20 week ultrasound I knew I needed to sound crazy excited in the video and say, "Yay! It's a boy!" I found myself saying that... a little half-heartidly.
To be honest, I think of I would have been told the baby was a girl... I would have strangely been sad it wasn't a boy. This all probably stems with not knowing if we can ever conceive again - and really wanting both a boy and a girl in our family. Weird feelings, but they were there!
I quickly changed my tune about wanting pink in my world and changed to being all about blue. I was still a little sad that my dreams of a girl might not come true. But seeing how excited Doug was to have a son took a lot of that away. He was ecstatic!
Now, I'm in love with having a boy.
I love how he *slightly* resembles my red headed hubby.
I love dressing my little man in plaid and polo's.
I love that when he plays, he zooms his cars and trucks around the living room.
I love his superhero t-shirts.
I love his dinosaur pajama's.
I love that he is a mama's boy.
I love how he has my heart.
I love how he says, "Mamamamamamamama." Makes me swoon.
I love that my dad has a namesake.
I could go on and on...
Now that I have one boy, I admit, I would love another. I would love for George to have a brother. I don't have a sister and Doug does not have a brother. I always missed that. I NEVER thought I'd ever say that I'd want a houseful of boys, but I could totally take it now.
Granted, I still would love a little girl too... but for now, Boys Rule.
Pictures by Beth. :)