Tomorrow (11/9 @ 2pm) is my endo/tube-fixing surgery. The house is clean, the laundry is done and I'm ready to go!
I keep going back and forth from soooo excited to absolutely petrified. That usually happens within a matter of minutes, so it has been an interesting day. I've had a few interesting nights as well. Last night I had a dream that they took ALL OF MY ORGANS out of my body. All of them. Not sure how I was alive without them, but I was! The doctors kept telling me the surgery was a success... there was no more endo after all! Ummm... NO!
The petrified part has filled up my day today. I have been SO POSITIVE about the surgery. But today, I let the fear of the surgery not working come in and take over. Ugh. I hate it when I do that. I don't doubt having the surgery. I need it. I want to feel better. I want to have less or no pain. I want my tubes to work. I'm just scared something will go wrong or the surgery will not work as planned and there will still be no baby. That's my biggest fear... no baby.
I went to mass tonight and felt peaceful for the first time all day. I stopped in the adoration chapel and felt even better. My priest anointed me on Sunday and I love that. I feel protected and that there will be a whirlwind of prayers all around me tomorrow. I still have fears, but am trying to just remain calm and be positive.
If you could please pray for a successful surgery, it would be greatly appreciated. And if you want to add in a prayer that they do NOT take organs out of my body, it would be greatly appreciated. :)
Mother of Tranquility and Mother of Hope, look upon me in this time of my weakness and unrest. Teach my searching heart to know that God's love for me unchangeable; and that true human love can only begin and grow by touching His love. Let your gentle peace which this world cannot give be always with me. And help me to bring this same peace into the lives of others. Our Lady of Mental Peace, pray for me.
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Prayers & hugs going your way!
Praying for you!!!!! Is it weird that I am so excited for you????
Praying for you!!! Actually, I have a funny story... I had my colon removed (which is the reason for my adhesions) and I had no idea that the appendix is attached to the colon. So after my surgery, while waiting for the doctor to come in the room at my follow-up appointment, I was looking at one of those charts on the wall... and I said to my mom "Umm... it looks like the appendix is attached to the colon. I think they took that out too!" And sure enough, the doctor said, "Yep, that's gone." And I had to ask if he had taken anything else I wasn't aware of!! :) In any case, I guess I don't ever have to worry about appendicitis, haha.
Please keep us posted!!
I am really praying they leave your organs alone!!! And praying they are successful and your surgery goes well:)
Oh gosh, I didn't realize your surgery was now! Yay! I'll be keeping you in close prayer and sacrifice today. I am so hopeful for the outcome of this surgery for you :)
It iswonderful to read of the peace you have. Praying for a successful surgery and quick recovery.
You WILL be surrounded in prayer! I have great hopes for you. Be excited, good things are coming! You are in my prayers!
Praying for a worry free surgery and quick recovery. May God calm down your anxiety and fill you with his peace.
I'll be doing a rosary in the car at noon, and I will devote a decade for you!
Praying for you, and I am excited too!! And the "one minute excited, the next minute terrified" is normal pre-surgery emotion. :)
Praying for a successful surgery for you and a QUICK recovery!!! I hope you had calm and peace and I was able to get my prayer in before they put you under.
You are in my thoughts and in my prayers today...
praying for you! and praying that GREAT things come from this!
PRAYING!!!!!! Can't wait to hear how it went!!!!
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