I've always had some issues with anxiety. I get so nervous about all the unknowns in life. I worry about everything. I have no control over things and it drives me crazy. I fret. I feel sick. I cannot sleep.
That is where I am tonight.
It started about me worrying about a work situation that has left me with a pit in my stomach.
It escalated into me worrying about my job, our finances, our health and health expenses, our parents health, baby boy's health, Doug's long commute to his work, providing for our baby, being a good mother, etc., etc.
It quickly got out of control.
I glanced at the clock... 2am. I tried to go back to sleep, but it didn't work.
I thought I'd look at what was up on my phone - oh my trusty iPh.one.
I saw this...
Thank goodness for Fr. Larry. "When I fear, I will trust in you." Psalm 56:3. I needed to hear that. I need to cast all my anxieties on Him. He is the only one that can take any of this away right now. I don't know why it is so hard to trust, to turn it over to Him, but it is.
But I will try. I'm heading back to bed and will pray and hopefully get a little more sleep before work.
If you could all spare a prayer for me as well, I'd really appreciate it.
15 comments:
So sorry, I probably didn't help! You will be a GREAT mother. Everything is going to be just fine. :) Trust me, as hard as it is, it's a zillion times more rewarding and wonderful.
I hope you got at least some sleep. I have had more anxiety in the past few months than in my whole life combined - and that's saying something because I am a classic, A+ worrier.
Love how the Holy Spirit spoke to you through Fr. Larry!
Oh, and here's a tip that helped me kick some reeaaaaallllly bad anxiety-induced insomnia in college: I get 15 minutes to worry/fret OR fall asleep. If I'm still awake in 15 minutes, I get out of bed and go watch TV, do dishes, journal, sit on the couch in the dark and stare at shadows, ANYTHING but lie in bed and worry. I've heard (and it was true for me) that if we let ourselves do that, then our bodies become conditioned to worrying when we go to bed. So, it keeps your bedroom a calming, restful place.
(I apply the same strategy if I wake up and can't go back to sleep.)
Prayers for you friend!
Praying! Cast all your worries on Him! He can carry them! Sometimes when I'm having trouble like that (especially when I need to sleep) I lie in bed and say a rosary and that usually helps, or I fall asleep during it! ;)
Ooh.. I'm going to remember that quote!! I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. The middle of the night is killer for my anxiety. My head it loopy and I just get soooo irrational. I hate waking up for that reason alone. I hope you are feeling better today :)
I hope things get better soon! I know that awful feeling in your stomach when something is worrying you and you can't calm yourself down from it.
As you know, anxiety and I have been best friends lately. I hope that it passes quickly!
You know I'm a worrier too and it's so hard to just trust in Him at times. I'm not sure why, other than the fact that we aren't perfect humans, so it's one of those things that we struggle with. Prayers are with you. All will work out the way it is meant to. If you need to talk, I'm here!!
I'm praying that your anxiety goes away. Keep looking to scripture for insight and reassurance. I heard somewhere that there are 365 places in the Bible where it says "be not afraid" or "do not fear"--one for every day of the year. Maybe you could make a collection of a few of them for your anxious times. Or memorize one or two.
I love Fr. Larry. :)
I just read Wheelbarrow Rider's latest post, and she did all the work for you. :)
http://tool4god-myjourneywithgod.blogspot.com/
You will be an amazing mother! I will pray for your peace.
Praying for you! Better late than never. :-)
Oh my gosh you will be an amazing mother! I mean.... If I can do it.... Hehehe
Love fr Larry :)
Hey you should name your boy Larry!
Hi Sarah, thanks for your explanation over on JB's blog!
Missing your posts Jenny! We need a pregnancy/nursery/life in general update!
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