Here we go... First fertility appointment.

Yep... Doug and I are officially heading into the fertility/TTC world.  We have our first appointment Thursday.  I'm a bit nervous.  I don't know what to ask, what to say or what to do in general (so please Help!) For several years, before I even met Doug, I had a feeling I would end up at an appointment like this.  But having it really be here is scary.


Some of you who read this blog might be wondering what we are doing heading to the fertility doctor after only been married 4 months.  Well... I've always had cysts and some painful cycles.  I was ignorant and did not fully understand what could really be the cause of cysts and pain and such.  Heck, I still am.  About a year and a half ago, I had horrible pain.  Pain so bad I ended up in the ER for an U/S to see what was going on.  They saw many cysts and figured one had ruptured.  They also saw that my tubes were filled with fluid.  Ugh.  Not what I wanted to hear.  Then, the day after we got engaged, Beth, took me for my HSG.  They found that one tube was blocked and one was open.  It was a bit funny during the test.  I was describing the engagement and showing off my ring while the doctor was doing his thing.  He kept asking questions in an attempt to distract me.  I guess he didn't like me asking... "Are they open??  Are they open?? Are they open??" every 2.5 seconds!  Ha!  He then advised that we started TTC right away.  Ummm... I politely said that we'd do that come our wedding night and he didn't really know what to say.  It was fun to shock him like that!

So then the wedding night came and went.  We did not expect to conceive right away or even within the first several months, but we have always been open to life.  I do admit, the first and second month, I did wonder if we would.  It was kind of exciting to think that having a baby could actually become a reality and not some far away idea like it had always been.  We had taken an NFP class and I had been charting.  My temps are all over the place and my CM very scant, periods light then crazy heavy and short short cycles.  I didn't really know what to think.  So one day when I was talking to my good friend, Sew, she suspected something was out of whack as well.  She told me to go get my blood drawn just to check my hormones.  We got testing on the same day!  Cycle day buddies!!  Well... thanks to Sew... I found out that it doesn't look like I'm ovulating at all!  My numbers were so low, that Sew asked if I had a vagi.na!  P + 7 progesterone was only 4.8.  Ouch.  And amid all the tears that were happening when I found out that news, she made me laugh!  Thanks Sew!  You rock!  


So, here we are.  The last two months I have not had any anticipation for anything.... except my appointment.  I moved on from my OB/gyn and went right to the fertility doctor, which he recommended when he called with the results.  I feel good about the doctor I will be seeing.  I've had a few friends go to him and they have since conceived two beautiful babies after stage 4 endo.  I've been trying to eat super healthy.  I've done  pretty well, but I haven't lost a pound.  Not one.  It's so frustrating.  I need to get healthy and it seems that whatever I try, it doesn't work.  I'm at a loss and I'm meeting with a different doctor next week to discuss what we can do about it.  So... that's the scoop.  I feel lucky that we found this so early and that I have a support system.  It's been hard and I know it's only the beginning....